My Love for Xinru

Lately my little Xinru at home seems like deprive for a lot of Hugs from me... As and when when she feels like it, she will become a little baby and tell me 'Mummy, hug hug' i always melt when i hear that and i will her a warm and deep hug... and i will always call her 'Ah Poh' in hokkien meaning 'My precious'... Nowadays when she ask for hugs, i will do the same thing and she will say 'Ah Poh'.... :)

I can't remember where did i read it... It says that toddler at her age now will need and wants a lot of hug / attention from us... and of course now when she is still young, i will shower her with more hugs and kisses since she is the only child at home for now...She deserves all that we can give cause by the time the #2 arrived, she will not have our full 100% of loves and attention.. She can felt the love that i have given her... She will have me in her mind in whatever things that she did... She will always mention 'it's for mummy...' She is such a dearie to me that i cannot imagine how my life if going to be without her by my side.... I always tell her that 'Xinru is mummy's precious... mummy cannot live without Xinru'...

Sometimes she is as stubborn as a ox.... She can stand firm and tell you 'No' when ask to listen to what i have say... Especially when we are with my mom and siblings... When i restrict her in doing somethings, she will not listen to me... cause she wants to have her own way and wants 'her face'... always end up being scold and daddy becomes the one to be the good man which have been all along like that...
Hubby has always been the 'good' father role at home, like letting her do what she wants and giving in when she fuss, while i am always the one who raise my voice at her, restricting her on certain things and at times even using cane on her... But after things have calm down, i will tell Xinru why am i doing not allowing her to do this and that and the consequences of doing it...

Indeed, Little Xinru has grown up, she has become a little child that has pride... She loves to hear us praise her when she did something good and she like us to clap for her when she did something she feels that she is good.... And we always appreciate what she has done although its nothing special... All kids need appreciation and need to feel loved by their parents, aren't they??

Sometimes i do feel that i am very strict on her... I also don't why i am like that... haha...maybe i have certain expectations from her that i am even not aware myself....But i will try to see things at different angle from now on and try to understand from her point... or else she will grow up to be someone who does not have her own direction... Although she is just a 1 more day to 29months old, but she understand and know what she should do and what she should not do.. just that at times she tries to test my patient... hehe

Although i always want to control what she does but i am never pushing her to do something that she does not like.... i prefer to let her do things and learn things at her own pace... Cause i always believe in giving her a nice childhood rather than pressuring her to do things... :)