21 May 2008

It was just an ordinary day... But something happen after Xinru fell asleep...

As usual, after bathing her she will take her milk and followed by watching her Barney's VCD then slowly drifted to sleep... I don't know why i feel very tried and super tired tat night, when she fell asleep, i fell asleep also and into deep sleep. Hubby was having his examination that night, hence no one came to the room to transfer Xinru or to wake me up...

Suddenly, a loud cry breakout.. the next thing i open my eyes, Xinru is not on the bed with me!!! I jumped off the bed and carried her up... I think i am stoned so i did not sense anything difference of her normal falling...

I carried her and normally after coaxing her a while she will go back to her beauty sleep but that night was different.... She was crying so bitterly... she cries like she seldom cry before unless she feel pain... From tat moment, i sense somethings not right already...

She cried and cried.... and tell me pain pain... and i eventually hug her to sleep....

Shortly, hubby returned... i told hubby and hubby give me a look.... I know he is not very happy that this has happen again cause due to my neglience, she has fell down a few times already... hubby say that i should have waited for her to sleep first... i was kind of anger but i did blame myself la... I did not dare to move her till she really fell into deep sleep....

After moving her to her bed, i went to the living room and hubby asked if i have tranfer her to her bed... then i just keep quiet lor... He did not really say anything... but i can feel he is upset...

Thru the night, she woke up a few times crying and ended up i only slept for a few hours.... The next day when i wake up, she somehow like injure her arms like tat, don't quite dare to move her arms and did complain that her arms are painful...

As usual, i brought her to the school and went to see doctor myself, just in case i need to bring her for Xray... I mention to her teacher and ask them to keep a lookout for me if anything's not right, just give me a call...

Later in the afternoon, i called them up and apparetly the teachers told me that she is as usual just that she will go and tell her teacher whom have not know about her arms that her arms are pain....

Later that night, hubby ensure that he came open the room door half an hour interval to make sure that the same incident don't happen again... After she slept that night, hubby tell me 'next time let her sleep first then u sleep la....' Although he did not sound offensive... but i was kind of offended.... I replied him 'are u tired after returnin home after a day of work?? i come back i still need to cook for her, need to do this and tat, u tink i not tired lor... u tink i wan this to happen meh?? she like tat fall down i also heart pain mah...' and tat shuts hubby's mouth up... I knew i over-reacted... but i also feel frustrated....

Past few days have been monitoring her... she looks okie and sometimes when we hold her hand up when goin up and down the escalator, she is fine but sometimes when u touch her a little she will say pain... haizzz