Backdated - My Birth Story

Hmmm kind of long to blog in my birth story ya... :P

Here it goes... On 4th Feb, i went for my routine scan at my gynae's clinic.. He mention tat my 'yang tai shui' is startin to go down.. so was ask to go back 3 days later to see again if it gets lower, i will haf to go and give birth liao... worry that bb might not be very healthy to come out early,so e next 3 days at home, i kept drinkin water...

On 7th Feb, went to see gynae again.. and gynae says that it's still droppin.. was thinkin 'shit..haf been grupin down so much of water, yet make it worse.. (maybe i pass out urine too much) so gynae check for my cervix dilation..and oh my god!! i am 2cm diliated... i felt ok cause my cervix is 2cm dilated means my gal wanna come out liao..so happily make arrangement w my gynae to go down TMC at 11pm.. WEnt for my dinner w my hubby at The Soup Restaurant... felt hungry but could not eat much.. maybe too excited cause i am goin to see my little gal who is inside my tummy for 9 months... when i told my mom that i am goin to give birth tat nite, she was shocked and dunno wat to do... instead, i am the one being cool.. told her to wait at home for the news that bb is out... Another funny one is my brother... mah chiam i dunno go to do what like tat... keep tellin me to be careful and tat to take good care of myself... was thinkin again.. will i be able to do tat.. haha but it's ok la.. he just bein concern abt me and bb...

Reached hospital at ard 10.55pm, was ask to change into the patient's pyjamas..then lie on the bed to wait for me gynae... at abt 11.15pm, my gynae came while my hubby is administering me into the hospital.. Gynae told me tat he will break my water bag to speed up the dilation and i was asked to put on grip which will also speed up dilation.. so i tot wow.. i may not have to suffer tat long hours of labour... My hubby came after i went to pass out all my motion and stayed w me in the labour room... i felt the contractions comin stronger after a while... i bear with it cause i know to give birth, this is the pain i haf to go thru... my determination bring me to ard 3+, 4am.. when the nurse came to check my cervix.. i was disappointed to hear wat she say... she told me 'ai yeo... ur cervix is not dilating well leh... how...can u still handle the pain.. do u wan epidual??' i say no i dun wan epidual.. and hang on to the pain but deep inside me.. i really feel discouraged... the nurse came again ard 5+,6am and check me again.. and say 'amanda, u are only 3.5cm dilated..we see how ur gynae say when he come ard 7am...' at that time i was really sad.... after so long hours w the help of the drip, i am still 3.5cm... i continue to bear w the pain but was hopin gynae faster come...

Slightly over 7am on 8th Feb , my gynae came... and he say tat, by rite, at this time, i should be able to be ready to give birth already.. but looks like ur bb is not in the position or her head is not able to fitted into ur pelvis bone... at tat time, all i could think was 'faster get it over' cause i haf the terrible 2-3mins contraction for the past 9 hours... i felt devasted.... before my gynae came, i told my hubby.. if he say to go for emergency c-section, i will agree... my hubby then say 'u dun wanna try to wait again??' i told him immediately.. if the cervix will dilate, it would haf few hours back... my hubby see my uncomfortable, he just keep silence... i was asked whether i would wan to have totally knocked off or half body... i really lost a lot of strength and determination is really pullin negative.. so i opted for total... i know we wun be able to see the arrival of my baby but i really dun feel good...

At 820am, i was pushed to the operation threate... the nurses there keep me calm cause i was groanin in pain due to the contractions... after a while, the 'ma jui shi' came and after a few words, i went into sleep....

After 20-25 mins, i came to a little sense tat i was bein pushed to the ward... and the next thing i knew tat was i am in my bed and a while just before i open my eyes, my hubby was beside me... he told me our bb is born and she is very cute.. nothin went into my ears.. everything was just like a dream... when i finally woke up, my hubby showed me the video that he took when the nurses clean up my baby... i din feel anything then... cause i am still in the 1/2 off mode...

Until later afternoon, when i was more awake, i ask if my hubby did show me the video and what was goin on.. then a while later, my gal was pushed into the ward, my mom carry her first grand-daughter in her arms and i knew tat she felt very touched... she carried her to me, puttin her beside me on my arms and we took our first pic.... till then i still dun feel anything towards the baby... hehe

At evenin, some of my colleagues came to visit me.. my good frens came with warm wishes.. look at baby... tellin me how cute she is... i felt very happy... :) After all went back, my hubby stayed with me till i slept then went back home.. Poor hubby everyday gotta rush here and there... came early and go back... Thanks god that he is always there for me.... :)

2nd day came.. i was alone in the ward and the nurse pushed bb to me.. for the first time, when i see her sleepin, my tears flow down so automaically... from tat moment, i finally felt that 'Yes, i am promoted and that is my cutie little baby'

Note: initially when i haf to do an emergency c-section, i felt very gulity.. cause i really wanna give birth to her naturally especially she is my #1... but things dun always go tat smooth... But now, i felt tat, it does not really matter whether she came out naturally or c-section.. I only know that we as her parents, haf to bring her up to a correct person and try to give her the best tat we can be... :)